Mother Love's Traveling Freak Show Lyrics

Phillip Andrew Friedman

Mother Love's Traveling Freak Show Lyrics

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Look Away

Falling through the cracks

You boarded up

Your ship's now sinking

And you can't touch the ground

She turns her eyes your way

And in return you see

All of nothing

Her eyes have pierced through you

Just look away!

Finally get back up

Through the cracks

You're now drowning

And you can't hear a sound

She looks as if to say

It's all right, don't be afraid

Climb on aboard

I've been expecting you

Just look away!!!

All We Are

Talk is cheap, words are frail

What do you want to hear?

Want me to speak, spin a tale

Of an ever after

Broken dreams, splintered plans

What am I to fear?

Kodak scenes and moments pass

Without a smile

Gift of rings, string of pearls

Desires with no meaning

Greed machines which never fail

To forgive the ID

Head of steam, off the rails

Is this all we are?

It doesn't seem that you care

What I need.

Is this all we are?

Misery has company,

Immaturity

Insincerity doesn't breed

Responsible people

Who never think, only take

With words like daggers

People bleed

And never face

The consequences

Is this all we are?

Hope and a Smile

She says she's hungry as she steals all the covers

Takes the remote and turns on the TV

She says I'll feed her if I really love her

And whimpers for me to massage her feet

She laughs, "Don't tickle" as she pillows my bed-head

She says she's hungry for pizza and milk

Grabs her shirt laying next to the bed

I head for the kitchen as she begins to sulk

And it's easy for me to see she's my wholeness

Making me laugh when I want to cry

In all, she's given to me this life

With hope and a smile

She lounges on the rug with a glass of Riesling

Dipping her Ruffles into cottage cheese

Her eyes are fixed on the new Trading Spaces

All her new ideas come from TLC

She jumps up to hug me and kisses my forehead

Her welcomes are always surprising to me

She rubs down my shoulders and makes sure that I'm fed

Then shuffles her cards to play Gin Rummy

And it's easy for me to see she's my wholeness

Making me laugh when I want to cry

In all, she's given to me this life

With hope and a smile

Pain

Pain, a picture in my mind

And all the color's fading

It's all to recognize what you need

Complete with neon signs

That flick inside of me

To see beyond the night

To where you might be

But I don't want to feel it

I won't feel it

I don't want to feel it

I want to let go

Wasn't it you who tried to fight

Me, and tell me not to worry

When I would doubt with

Every right everything you said?

Wasn't it I time after time

Who said I'm sorry

When it was you who always lied

And played with my head?

But I don't want to feel it

I won't feel it

I don't want to feel it

I want to let go

Pain, a picture in my mind

And all the color's bleeding

It's all to visualize

Where you've been

And still I try to fight

But there's no healing

There's too much out in the

Night for me to win

But I don't want to feel it

I won't feel it

I don't want to feel it

I want to let go

After Alice

To walk away with

Nothing more than hope

Twisting, turning, falling

Down every broken slope

Hoping, wishing, praying

For all your dreams to come true

After Alice comes

There's nothing you can do!

And to follow a voice from

A face you cannot see

Tripping, trudging, crying

Over every broken dream

Slipping, sliding, staling

With all your bitter fears

After Alice decides to stay

You disappear

Under your thumb

Under the gun

It's all right

It's all right.

To turn away with

Nothing more than shame

Breaking, cracking, shaking

From all the driving pain

Searching, looking, grasping

For the last gasp of breath

After Alice fades away

There's nothing left.

Life

I made my bed

I'll lay in it

I don't know how

I don't know why

I got myself into this life

I don't know why

I don't know how

I'm going to find a way back out

And all I said was true

Despite what I did to you

And all I gave was real

Despite how it made you feel

I don't know when

I don't know where

I discovered that I care

I don't know where

I don't know when

I'm going to try this all again

And all this was my dream

Despite how dark it seems

And all this made me strong

Despite that you were gone

I don't know why

I don't know how

I'm going to live the here and now

I made my bed

I'll sleep in it

I don't know how

I don't know why

I got myself into this life

And all I said was true

Despite what I did to you

And all this made me strong

Despite that you were gone

Weak

Stuck on this pedestal

You set me on

Have you ever thought

You could be wrong

Or have your senses

All just left and gone

All for me?

I'm not sending signals

Tell me, are you lost?

Stop sacrificing

I'm not worth the cost

I'm no one's savior

So get me off this cross

And let me be

It makes me weak

Just to think about it

I'm not saying I have

A second face

Just understand I'm

Not your saving grace

It's time you slow down

And find your own pace

All for you

Stop making me feel

Like such a fool

I'm embarrassed to be

On this pedestal

And all these others

They think I'm using you

That's not true

It makes me weak

Just to think about it

Unfaithful

Reaching out a hand

To touch

The honesty, I long

For much

More than all the words

I heard in all the lies

Place a finger to

Those lips

As tears of salt slide

Down and drip

On the hands that ache

Too much to wave

Goodbye

And how am I supposed to be

The one who'll bring the morning sunshine

And how am I supposed to think

That all of this was real at one time

And how am I supposed to feel

Knowing all the greatest parts were lies

Tongue in cheek under

Eyes of pain

Looking in to the

Pouring rain

But nothing clouds deceit

And bitter shame

Like Judas trying to

Repent his sin

Jagged thoughts come

Rushing in

And I can't help wondering

If I'm to blame

And how am I supposed to give

Another what you've stolen from inside

And how am I supposed to see

The end of this tunnel has a light

And how am I supposed to believe

That all of this will heal over time

And how am I supposed to live

When every breath I've taken is a lie

Hate

I hate to be different

I hate to conform

I hate how I'm broken

When I want to be torn

I hate that I'm honest

I hate that I lie

I hate that I'm living

Only to die

I hate that I'm open

I hate that I'm closed

I hate that my 15 minutes

Seem so unknown

I hate that I'm fiction

I hate that I'm fact

I hate that reality

Is something I lack

I hate to be seen

I hate to be heard

I hate that I'm speaking

And don't say a word

I hate all the poets

I hate all the pain

I hate the musicians

And all that they sing

I hate politicians

I hate sporty jocks

I hate peace-tree huggers

Spreading their crock

I hate all the posers

And bandwagon fools

I hate liberal oppressors

That's all they can do

I hate stupid people

I hate know it alls

I hate people smiling

Without a clue in the world

I hate when I'm happy

I hate that I'm sad

I hate that misery

Is all I can have

I hate that I hate

I hate that I care

I hate that emotions

Are what I can't bare

I hate that I'm finished

I hate to begin

I hate that an ending

Starts over again

Towers Of Neverland

Peter, I saw Peter

Dancing with the wind

A forest of dreams

A river of mermaids

A world of fascination

Stars in the sea

Sand in the hourglass

Poured from imagination

Peter, I saw Peter

Dancing with the wind

Given the lost boys are found

And the aging of Peter Pan

No wonder all the towers are

Now falling down

In Never-Neverland

Peter, I saw Peter

Dancing with the wind

Pixie dust flight

Through all Wendy's stories

"Ingines" and mermaids loom

Second star to the right

Straight on 'til morning

Everything is surreal

Peter, I saw Peter

Dancing with the wind

Given the lost boys are found

And the aging of Peter Pan

No wonder all the towers are

Now falling down

In Never-Neverland

She Don't Know

Your head isn't thinking right

And you can't even sleep at night

But no, no, no

She don't know

Your evenings are spent all alone

Waiting by a non-ringing phone

But no, no, no

She don't know

Your eyes are all bloodshot and sting

And you feel like you've lost all your dreams

But no, no, no

She don't know

How many times can one say goodbye

Holding in all the pain inside

But no, no, no, no

She don't know

Hunger's a memory

And you don't feel like doing a thing

But no, no, no

She don't know

And you just wish that you would die

To forget all this pain in your life

But no, no, no

She don't know

How many times can one play the fool

Wishing that everything was cool

But no, no, no, no

She don't know

Your head isn't thinking right

And you're too weak to put up a fight

But no, no, no

She don't know

How many times can one say goodbye

Holding in all the pain inside

But no, no, no, no

She don't know

How many times can one play it tough

Knowing that inside enough's enough

But no, no, no, no

She don't know

Sneakin' Up

Here we go

Where we started, I don't know

It's all up to a vague hypocrisy

I dreamt again

Maybe I should just stay in bed

My subconscious makes more sense

Than my reality

I can't wait for her nevers

That's all I'm getting from her

Yet, again, you've won

Sneakin' up on me

Time to laugh

Or, tell me

Has it come and passed

Humor has this way of missing me

Not slowing down

Why is it the world spins 'round

When all I want is to

Hold my head and sleep

I can't wait for forever

That's not what I'm asking of her

Yet, again, you've won

Sneakin' up on me

Not A Game

Sometimes you smile at me

With your sh*t stare grin

In your subtle way

Sometimes you raise my chin

Just enough to hit me

In my face

Sometimes you break me

Down and make me feel

As though I'm dirt

Sometimes you kiss my a**

And then fu*k me over

When my back is turned

You play

It's not a game, are you insane

You know you'll be the one I blame

Still you stay and make your play

It's such a shame; you're such a waist

And I can't lose this bitter taste

Once again, it's not a game

Sometimes I feel so good

So I let you go

So you can crawl right back

Sometimes I'm the one to leave

But you follow, follow

'Til I crack

Sometimes I'm falling

Falling, falling I just

Can't stand up

Sometimes I'm standing tall

And then you come

And so I'm fu*ked

You play

It's not a game, are you insane

You know you'll be the one I blame

Still you stay and make your play

It's such a shame; you're such a waist

And I can't lose this bitter taste

Once again, it's not a game

2003 Window Sill Music

2003 Andrew Recordings

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