Of parental scattered dreams

Here in this house

She thrives on naked screams

Fear is a fortune used

To earn all their pain

Reconciliation

Doesn't carry any weight

 

All threats with no action

No, I don't think so

Take in two that are new

And to Hell with the old

 

Oh, Father

Oh, Father

You shouldn't have walked away

Oh, Father

Oh, Father

When we needed you to stay

Oh, Father

Oh, Father

It could never be the same

But Father

Oh, Father

It is not you I blame at all.

 

Jamie's staring off

Across the room again

I'd give a nickel for her thoughts

A dime to get in her head

All I know is that she'll

Always have her little dreams

And she's the missing piece

To the puzzle that makes

My life complete

 

And every time I try to

Think of what to say

I know that my fears

Are getting in the way

 

She's every part of everything

That makes me want to live forever

If our forever can always be like this

And every piece of every need

Is fulfilled whenever we're together

But she must leave and that's my nemesis

 

Jamie's smiling at

My clumsiness again

Watching me fall over her

While trying to play a friend

Over and over I'm

Tripping through her smile

I hope she knows that it's

Her that makes my life

Worth while

 

And every time I try

To think of what to do

I know that I am

Going to play the fool

 

 

There's a cold wind blowing outside

It wants to take you for a ride

But you feel so cold

As you just think of the window

 

There's a man waiting outside

He wants to take you for a drive

 

 

And all my dreams

Have gone away

I don't know where

I'm going to stay

On the outside

 

There's a cold wind blowing in here

The chill, it shatters crystal clear

Yet you feel so warm and you

Think of the window

 

There's a cat caught in a tree

It looks so terrified of me

It cries for your help

But you say just let it go

 

 

Time, all I have is time

Don't want to spend my life

Hoping for you

 

You, only you

Can bring me through

This caddy world

 

Your gentleness

And sweet caress

Moves by

 

Your eyes are emeralds

With a pearl and diamond base

Each memory I've built with you

My heart cannot erase

Let no fear grow

Let no pain show

Let us give us our best try

 

I, I promise I

Will love you right

For the rest of my life

Life, all my life

I've had no sight

So lost and confused

 

Your heart so warm

Your smile, a charm

My guide

 

Her hair, so long

And blond, it flows with grace

Magic consumes the air

Whenever we embrace

Let no man in between

I'll let no woman steal your scene

Let us never say goodbye

 

In time, all I have is time

I'm going to spend my life

Wishing for you.

You, only you

Know what is true

So, Should I believe

That I'm with you

And what we're getting to

Is our time?

 

You keep talking circles 'round my brain

Understanding you is such a strain

Talking, always talking, but never speak

Making sense must be your petty peeve

 

'Cause you rubbed it all in after you spat all out

Didn't you?

You had to make sure you were what the scene was about

Didn't you?

 

Always must be part of the latest trend

You're so fake you're life must be pretend

 

Hot thing, lonely

I swear it's the saddest sight I've seen

She's got her long dress, wading

Like an angel from a school boy's magazine

 

Can't you feel her flame?

Don't even know her name.

 

Just like pictures for pleasure

Pictures for Pleasure

 

Blinded, but still staring

I swear I can't tear my eyes away

 

 

A door six feet in front of me

A splinter to my mind's eye

It's locked and I don't have a key

To try the other side

Tempted in an offered fire

Her offering is for me

I've had my doubts of your desire

Now, I know you are the key

 

But I'm still waiting for your call

I'm still waiting for a part of you

 

Mounds of rocks and building blocks

To keep the closed door closed

She asks as if to knock

Fighting, I take hold

 

I've been lying in bed thinking of the words to write

I've been struggling with this pen and page all night

I hear the tone crystal clear inside my head

But the words don't seem to be right when I get out of bed.

 

People don't understand this is the way I feel

It's so hard to be taken seriously

I hope that she understands that every word is real

And that she means so much to me.

 

Each word has meaning, but only to my eyes

Would she take them wrong, or think of them as lies

I still don't feel as if I've got the point across

 

 

In the night

Thou will be with Thee

Could thou pass the bread

Before thou pass the tea

 

The night the queen got stoned

We just sat around and laughed

She was addicted to her throne

And her white powder magic bag

 

 

Time and time again

That word is always said

What does time mean to you?

 

What will the future bring?

Is there something less for you and me?

Time is a politician's tool.

 

Who holds the answers?

Who knows how to live?

In a world of give and take

Why are we the only ones who give?

 

Time to rise up

And to stand tall

We've got to rise up

And stand tall

 

Move the pawn in knight position

Who would question their decisions?

Though, they play the game of fools

 

Or, they'll just move it back again

Progress in reverse direction

Wasting our time is nothing new.

 

Who holds the answers

And who's got truth to give?

In a world built on lies

How are we suppose to live?

 

 

She said, "No," when

I asked her to stay

So I said, "Go if

You must be on your way.

But, please don't lie

I could use some honesty.

Just say goodbye

And not that you love me."

 

Oh, well, roll call is here

Oh, well, roll call is here

Maybe next time I'll be there

 

She said, "Yes," when

I said to go

And then she left and

Headed down the road

I understood why

She had to leave

I did all I could but

She never loved me

 

 

 

 

Out on a wire,

I'm out on a limb.

Got me hanging

All over again.

I can't give up

No, I can't give in

And so this pain

It never seems to end.

 

 

Here, all alone

I'm all by myself

How could I think

Of anybody else?

Am I supposed to put

My heart upon a shelf

And deny all the

Feelings that I've felt?

 

For you and me,

Are worlds apart.

Yet, still I've tried

If love can hold

To reach your heart.

To reach out

And grab ahold

And not let go...

 

The Smoke of the moon

Is rising up for all to see

How beautiful our love

Was meant to be

The smoke of the moon

Is rising up and all can hear

The sound of a two part love harmony

 

If you just turned away

The hurt would stay

But at least I'd know

That all I'll have is pain.

Though, I'd know it would be alright

If you stayed with me

And then we'd see

If it's meant to be this time.

 

 

Zen Fear